The other day, while catching up on some tweets, I noticed that one of my favorite bloggers had sent out a mass thank you. She was saying thank you for all the kind emails regarding her most recent post. I had to investigate to ensure everything was okay and that is where I found this post. Elizabeth goes into the post stating how she has been having a rocky relationship with the internet and the things that occur here. This got me thinking...
I believe we can all relate to the way that Elizabeth is feeling. As a woman insecurities come with the territory. Through the decades women have been dictated as needing to appear, dress, and act a certain way. Even from the time we entered the world we were expected to be wrapped in pink and with each turn we were presented with new expectacies we must conform to. I am not a fan of conforming... she explains how she feels "expected" to find her "niche" as a blogger. I have felt the same way... but why? Why must we find a "niche"? To me, expecting bloggers to find a "niche" is breeding competition and cliches while not allowing for uniqueness amongst individuals. When did blogging become more than a way of self expression and comradery as a community? If finding a "niche" is so necessary why do they call it "lifestyle" blogging? Is my "life" only relevant if it fits a certain mold? Is the lifestyle I live only interesting if others can relate?
And why does it feel increasingly similar to re-entering high school? High school is when we begin having the need to "find who we are". In fact, it's drilled into our heads at this point... "What do you want to be after high school"? I find a good deal of irony in this event... why? For the most part people claim that a teenager, of high school age, is not capable of making mature decisions... so why are we forced to make one of the most important life decisions at this age? Sorry, off track! My point is that life as a high school student is rough. You have the constant pressure of "fitting in" and finding exceptance within the eyes of your peers. Sound a little familiar?
Recently I have completely disconnected from my Bloglovin feed. Why? I started using Bloglovin as a way to find inspiration amongst some of my favorite and more established reads. I would admire their latest ensemble... contemplate their latest recipe... debated their latest DIY... all in the name of inspiration right? But I started to find I was not inspired in the slightest! On the contrary, I was left feeling sad, confused, and irrelevant. You see I am not a city chic fashionista, a baking Betty prodigy, a makeup maven, or a domestic DIY damsel, but their posts left me feeling like I "should" be. Like my success as a person who is considered "likable" souly depended on my ability to perform.
Perform... hmmm... is that what we've become? Performers? We perform on command in hope that people will like us? It all seems so bazaar to me since signing out of my Bloglovin... but this is honestly how I was feeling! When you feel like you are not suceeding as a blogger you feel like you are not suceeding as a person. That is what blogging is all about, your person... who you are and the life you live. I finally feel like I can breathe for the first time in six months and just be.
I am a girl who lives in the woods, on a ranch, with our animals and nature. I don't spend hundreds of dollars on designer clothes, make delicacies from scratch, or turn everything I touch into a crafty creation. I am the girl at the end of a dirt road, running barefoot through a field, capturing a world of wonder through a camera lens. And what is so wonderful about it? I am alive and soaking up every simple moment as if it were my last. I am living my life for me and meeting amazing people who find wonder and fascination in the differences my world holds. When you put yourself out there you find you allow for people to truly love you, not what you do. Because in my heart of hearts I'd rather be hated for who I am, than be loved for what I am not.
Are you currently experiencing the "niche" pressure?
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